Yes yes yes yes yes this yes!!! I loved Yom Kippur so much. Not because it brought me closer to G-d I was always close. In fact the top sefriot is exactly where I hid when I was trying to survive what my poor human shape was enduring. I want to be judged. Yes Ha--em tell me im flawed, find me wanting, judge me disgusting and undeserving of love, please please point out everything I did wrong so that there is a reason why those sworn to love me hurt me. I found your post while trying to figure out how Hod and Netzach should be interpreted for someone who does not feel they are above others. My prayers on Rosh Hashanah led me to these levels and I found myself crying begging no no anything but this. I will endure anything but please don't make my feet touch the Earth its so scary down here!
Yes yes yes yes yes this yes!!! I loved Yom Kippur so much. Not because it brought me closer to G-d I was always close. In fact the top sefriot is exactly where I hid when I was trying to survive what my poor human shape was enduring. I want to be judged. Yes Ha--em tell me im flawed, find me wanting, judge me disgusting and undeserving of love, please please point out everything I did wrong so that there is a reason why those sworn to love me hurt me. I found your post while trying to figure out how Hod and Netzach should be interpreted for someone who does not feel they are above others. My prayers on Rosh Hashanah led me to these levels and I found myself crying begging no no anything but this. I will endure anything but please don't make my feet touch the Earth its so scary down here!